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looseness.
Wednesday, November 25 1:03:00 PM
Hey everyone. I went for Discipleship Program in church for the two nights and I've learned much within that four hours. Graduated from New Life 101, hehehee! Pastor Jadeline, sis Karen and sis Angie, thank you! =) I am looking forward to learn the rest and gain a profound insight of His words. Amen.
Don't copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will know what God wants you to do, and you will know how good and pleasing and perfect his will really is. (Romans 12 : 2) Do you know that we always interpret things with our own experience, thoughts and with the influence of people around you? We make our own initial conclusions based on these, and at the end, it maybe true or phony. Whether you like it or not, these indeed makes up the way we think, the way we express ourselves, and just you yourself. If you are on the right path with Him, you will do just fine even with uneven boulders of life. If you are not and still struggling to be someone but not you just to fit in, well, open your heart to Him and think again. All this while, I have been a big people-pleaser. I have always put others before me and this guileless of mine had actually brought me into a seriously appalling experiences back in my secondary school. Whatever I do, wherever I go, whoever I am with, people just know it and they talk about it and even worse some of them alter the stories into unpleasant ones. And I don't please people for my benefits, it is just one of my character. Yes, there are certain parts that I really cannot forgive myself for being so idiotic to please the wrong people. I let them have their control over me, me myself you know. I should not, yes I know. I feel so guilty for myself. And this guilt that I have been carrying for years ever since then just popped out when Pastor Jadeline was talking about seeking freedom from guilt. Not just this guilt, the silly mistakes that have been haunting me all this while too. It was a swift flashback and then... I came across this. "Though you are aware of your wrong doings, you DO NOT have the ability to erase your guilt. Only the forgiveness of God can remove your guilt. When you confess your sins to God, He will forgive you and give you a clear conscience." In that chair I was sitting down, I said to myself that it is time for me to drop this guilt right now and move on to experience His new life as I have asked Him to save me. All these miseries just peter out! And you can never imagine my feelings right now. The next morning I woke up motivated with His peace. I feel so much better! I just stopped weeping over this matter. Like what sis Karen said last night, the church is for sinners. I have done mistakes in my life, who did not? Even the presidents, the judges, your parents, the person who you look up to, they too make mistakes. And and and...mistakes perfect us! =D I didn't say that I will stop making mistakes, but at least I will be able to reduce the proportion of my own wrong decisions. Karen shared some of her testimonies and everyone was enthralled, really! Absolutely out of the ordinary nights for me. And I am hoping that I will feel His countless works too like He did in her life. I believe I will. I am not seeking for forgiveness, but the Forgiver. I am not searching for healing, but the Healer. I am not asking for deliverance, but the Deliverer. I am not hunting for love, but the Lover. I am not striving for restoration, but the Restorer. I don't want to be saved, but I need the Savior. As He is my everything, together I will be given with forgiveness, healing, deliverance, love, restoration and be rescued! =') God gives us salvation, restoration, renewal, healing, deliverance and providence. Astonishing! Well, friends, I wanna share all that I have absorbed in this program with you. If you are guys are free, just let me know. You can either come over to my house, text me, go out for a drink, or MSN. It is not bad thing for sure, I am sharing the good stuffs here. As much as I can help, I will do so. =) God bless everyone^^ |
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imperfection.
Tuesday, November 24 12:12:00 AM
If everyone is perfect, then why did God made us all then? Why does He wants to make replicates of Himself?
No one is perfect. Even you. Yes you. No matter how obedient you are to your parents, how often you spare your time to be with your special one, how much you donate part of your income to the needy ones, how often you go to church, how smart you are in your studies, how hardworking you are when you're in the office, how caring you are towards our Earth, how influential you are to the community, how talented and skillful you are, how many years you have been a good person... No matter what of anything, you are still imperfect! We, humans, are born with flaws. And it is up to us HOW are we going to encapsulate these flaws and manage it well in a positive manner. These flaws are of physically, mentally and morally ones. If you asked me HOW ; in what ways? I would answer you this. I have surrendered, laid down everything at His feet. Yes, Him. Only Him. Jesus Christ. I don't wanna make things sound so holy here. But yes, that is MY answer. So, what about you? Ever think of why you wake up in the morning feeling awful and useless? Rather like living in an isolated mini cube. I felt that before. Everyone would. You wouldn't know that tomorrow you will be facing the same exact dreadful feeling! And those are the days, the black days of mine. Whereby my routine was rather wake up-go to college-learn-trying hard blindly to ace exams-meet friends-dramas-tears-back home. And it goes on daily. People might take it as "Oh, that is just a phase in everyone's life". Come on, seriously, just wake up! Our life is far beyond that. It is not only about being excellent academically, working hard to get promoted, and gaining enough or more cash to be able to pay off the bills. Those are our basic purposes in life. It keeps all of us survive, well at least it does. However, such survival will, one day make you grow so shattered! Let's welcome God's LOVE into our lives. God will never give up on us, definitely. God will never stop loving us, definitely. God will never forsake us, definitely. Though we are all imperfect, there is one thing that differentiates us from the common ones. The love. The faith. The commitment. The strength. The power. The depth. The pledge. Everything that comes from Him that are meant to be purely saturated in our hearts. The perfect one, only Him. Though I maybe young in it, I believe there are much more miraculous works that has been cemented on my pathway which are yet to be discovered. The best of everything is yet to come. He has turned my world upside down leading to a spiritually fit life. I am just so blessed. God is real, people. =) For better or worse, I still love Him. Yes and Amen. Good night, peaceful sleep you all will have. Opps, it's already morning. =D p/s: I would like to dedicate this post to friends that I have invited for this year's Christmas celebration and to those whom I have been talking to personally. You know who you are. I hope you guys will come. |
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I am still ALIVE.
Monday, November 23 2:56:00 PM
So, here I am. Hello! =)
This marks my new blog posts. For a start, I just want to let everyone know that I am still ALIVE though I have abandoned my blog for quite some time, it was all plainly because I was busy with my exams. Good news is I am done with my A-Levels! You won't see me in the TARC library anymore till late night. Hipp,hipp, hooorraaayyy! Bad news is the results. Urgh! Two more months or three before the results are out. Hmmphh, I don't know the exact date, but am praying hard that this time my results will be better! You guys must be wondering what have I been up to all this while. Some of you may have always check on my blog daily, some may not. Besides having exam, there are soooooo many things happened. Obviously, I can't like actually put everything into a single post here but what I can tell you that it has been a great journey, and better, it will still go on. True enough that I can't deny that it doesn't blends with circumstances and new challenges, but through all these, I grow. And most importantly, it is through Him, in Him, with Him. I have never felt this good before in my entire life, and I thank everyone for your constant overflowing support and prayers. I shall start with a little update of everything now. Family. Well, Mom is fine, only that she is really tired of working. For your record, she has been working ever since she left her secondary school. Form 5, I think. So, yea, just imagine those number of years. One tough woman. Hmm, she was supposed to quit her job last year, but her boss doesn't want to let her go due to many good reasons. So, yeah, she said maybe for two more years and that's it. Dad, hmm, I think he just got himself a new job. Well, it's complicated. He is basically a physiotherapist-gym trainer-football coach. Along with that, he is still with his bad temper and habits. I am not giving a bad image of him (although I just did), but yea, it is just him. Bro, yeah he changed a lil bit here and there, lesser arguments and fights. This is what happens when a cat meets a dog. =P LOL. I can see that he has build up his passion in studying. Kudos for him. And yes, me. I am just fine as I have surrendered everything into His hands and I let Him do the awesome works in my life. Friends. I know it has been a while ever since I hang out with my college friends, but one thing for sure I never forget you all. Hoping that we all could spend one good time together. Not to mention that I will be meeting my secondary schoolmates this Saturday, I am looking forward to it. Really excited about it! Hopefully those who has confirmed their attendance could make it for the reunion. Hope to see the gorgeous ladies and handsome dudes! =) Special thanks to my old primary schoolmates too. We managed to contact each other through Facebook. It has been ages man...7 years! Also to my National Service friends, hahaa, never thought that you guys would be able to find my Facebook since I have changed my number. And please, do not pass around my new number. Not only that, new ones are added into my circle of friends and it keeps on growing bigger and deeper! If you know me well, you should know just how much I love to meet new people from all walks of life with different stories, attitudes and experiences. I am still trying to remember their names, but so far so good! *laughs* Personal one, hehe, we are okay. He is having his exam now. All the best! =D Pets. Jasper is like usual, bruises everywhere, loves to fight with other dogs. But he is getting better. Lacy, ahh my lil cute puppy, small but fierce. She eats a lot nowadays! Getting fatter!! Okay, those are little updates for everything. Apart from that, I have made myself busy for this whole week! Next week, I have to come up with something else. Anyone with any interesting plans, please text me! God bless everyone^^ |
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